Crystal Baby Crowned

I have started another blog. I will still be posting  my experiences with Emily here. .

http://butterflyexperience.blogspot.com/2009/10/fallen-off-tree.html

A glimpse inside Pandora’s Box has been speaking to me for some time now. I am being guided to diarrhea excerpts of my life for reasons I cannot explain so here goes-Read at your own risk!!!

I was raised in a cult religion, at the age 21 when I became pregnant (out-of-wedlock) I was thrown out of this order. Since then My Mom, me and sister ran and never hid.

I am very sensitive, it took me years of practice to use it to my advantage.

My father left my Mom when I was born and my sis was 2.

I do not know what it is like to be “Daddy’s little girl”

I absorb the dynamics of my husband’s relationship with Emily.

I was married before in an abusive relationship, then found lesbianism which at the time was safe for me.

I dated many Dark souls.. one of which was the devil himself…eeekkkk

At one period of my life pills were my fix.

Transformation is my life in one word.

I studied with various spiritual philosophes.

I do not have a religion.

I am nature fused.

I studied with a mystery school and learned so much.

I also studied  Universal Kabbalah.

I cured my imbalances, with spiritual practice.

I am a “hermit”.

I commune with Emily telepathically.

I see peoples faces morph into things that are ummm.. are not so pretty..

My mother had a still born before me, his name is Timothy; he speaks to me frequently.

I relate to Mythology.

I am harmoniously married with an amazing daughter Emily.

I wrote a poetic book all about my traumas which was published  it was a cleansing of my soul.

I let go of all the things that do not serve me.

I sing and could have made a career out of it.

I love Butterflies.

Emily is my teacher.

I love Blogging, but find it difficult to navigate.

I internally work  everyday to keep my darker aspects away from myself.

“We all chose the same train only my journey required more stops before I reached my final destination” crs

~Okay Pandora’s box is closing now… now what~??

Food Glorious food.  What was at one time a emotional clutch is now a bountiful cornucopia.  The sensitivities of Emily’s system still at 7 months are strong.  Gluten, soy, dairy  and wheat are poison for her little system. Since breast feeding is her main source of nourishment, I have had to keep a very strict diet due to her sensitivities. My determination and inner strength kept me going on as I knew it is the best for her. Besides rationalizing a selfish stance towards this, I have remained open and followed her lead. The benefits for me since I have altered my diet significantly are amazing. I never realized (unawakened) how gluten is present in just about everything I have ever consumed. I did realize there must be a higher purpose for her system not being able to handle all of the mainstream food. Perhaps she will grow out of it, as many do, though what will my course of action be if she does? Will I remain on this path of eating healthy, or will I slip back into the old ways of eating? Well 35 pounds later, skin and nails I could only have wished for are worth this experience. Yet still I do feel at times singled out when I am out at get together’s  and need to bring my own food, as many judge my views.  Connecting with Emily on this matter I gained clarity on a multi faceted point of view that has assisted me with comprehending a deeper meaning.

These food intolerance’s are meant not to make you suffer Mother, rather the opposite. Purity in..purity out..garbage in…garbage out. Transformation on a 3D level is at play here as you switch gears into parenthood. There are many times humans transform within their individual lives, as the perplexities are not of the same makeup.Speedy beneficial changes are whats in store for many. Many will not accept it, withdraw and shut down. Remaining in a fluid energy during these changes will reap you ascension at its best. Ascension is like walking up a mountain, you will need specific tools with you as you journey upward. It will be uncomfortable, as the buttons are pushed thoroughly. Divine guidance is always manifested and infused with LOVE. Perception is where the learning starts. What does not serve you any longer will vanish away effortlessly if you choose to sit back and watch verses get stuck in the sticky residue that manifests during these shifts.

Mystery teachings,  and old ancient mystics are a few emerging out of the hiding to assist the mass level consciousness during these most positive changes. The older hidden underground ways of survival, are being brought to the surface to humanity to incorporate into the “modern world”. The “food” issues are an  aversion  that spirit uses  for your higher learning. Difficulty and hard ships birth new ways of living outside of the box. The opening of the heart to the natural world produces  a symphony of creative harmonies with in. The shining ones are birthing at a rapid rate, and it is indeed;  intended  necessity for souls growth. My attachment toward you is as close to heaven as you will experience here on earth.

Rejoice during this period because this too shall pass. Additional levels of learning are forthcoming.

I have emptied my cup completely and surrendered to the heavens my old ways of parenting. My daughter has been working with my weaknesses on a level that is healing me subtly.

The past several weeks my direction and attention have been on assisting my husband with a speedy healing process. During this I have allowed myself to abandon my inward reflecting. While this  was happening Emily developed a ear infection (her first one) which I caught very early. Then her strong will personality has been fighting with me on a level  I now understand.

Since she was born, I have had problems with getting her to sleep meaning every time I placed her in her crib, she would not.. I mean would not… sleep in it. I tried everything from healing stones inside her sheets, space clearing with sage, and music, to Calling  in Archangel Michael for  protection. Plus doing my own ritualistic protection affirmations. Some times after doing this, she would go in it to sleep only for a short time. So for awhile I followed her demanding lead and watched as a spectator as she slept in my arms, in my bed, wherever she wanted. This goes in spurts, sometimes she goes in her crib fine, when other times she will literally cry non stop(even after a reasonable amount of time.. checking in patting her back, reassuring her etc)

I have this idea that it is “wrong” to let baby rule you….however this baby isn’t ruling me…… seems like more teaching is at hand. This teaching is NOT something I am used to that is for sure. I connected with her in the telepathic way pleading for some answers or in the least some guidance on her behavior.

The “coincidence” of my behavior and the lack of your inner silence is to be recognized. It is true that your arms are the most of comfort for me. I do prefer to sleep in them as much as possible. The hidden gifts humanity attain  some times emerge when their is no idea that they are gifts. Your touch carries a frequency that heals my vibrational sensitivities. This soothes me down  to my soul, comparable to a cut on the skin immediately you  place your loving care to it as you nurse it back to its former state. When you are experiencing inner fears especially the newer energies of the ongoing  ascension process, our connecting cord manifests with small tears. These tears are repairable with your love and nurturing care to yourself. To repair you must first mend what is tearing you apart inside. Old behavior habits must be sent to the light in order for new natural habits to appear. New creative ways will be available all you need to do is sit still. It is perfectly okay to be unsure, as it is okay to feel scared. I feel the unknown energy you carry as a negative.  Unknowns are divinely guided and as soon as you decide to embrace it  the sooner the unknowns will transform into adventures. Old thought forms of parenting you have embedded inside are from others they do not belong to you. Release them to the light and you will receive the appropriate lead.

The former ways have passed away.

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Here..here we go again

With all of the recent worldly occurrences as well as my own minor Earthquakes,  my silence has assisted the grounding process inside my world. The apparent shifts happening today are remarkable manifestations  that we all have been hearing about. This “New Earth” will no doubt destruct anything that is standing in our way or paths.

In my own life, when the earthquake shakes my inner/outer world I know that this too shall pass, and I know that magnificant new land will be emerging. I remind myself through my life…through my pain…provides me with my true self once again. Parts of my being   steadily chip away, like old blown out crystals. Then new elightened ones shine through. When our higher selves need  fine tuning, we experience the earthquake.  How we handle the earthquakes damages; determines the severity  of the  foundations built construction. Rather than fighting these changes, remaining still as the events transpire will surely cultivate an outstanding outcome. After all we created our own earthquakes, the sooner we realize this the sooner we will learn how to develop a powerful stance.

Just finished reading “Enlightenment through the Orbs” by Diane Cooper. Anyone read it?

I took this picture this am with my Blackberry, and was quite astounded when I viewed it.

This picture indicates something inside my babies eyes… the illumination caught on camera has intrigued me, merely due the location the light is beaming out of. According to Diane Coopers writing, she indicated that angelic orbs specifically show up in pictures when the capture’s heart is  fully open. Additionally, states that lights/orbs that are on a particular location of the physical, is a way of protection and shielding.

I am interested in others views, so if you have one please do not hesitate to post. Thanks,

My 20 year High School reunion is coming up and at first I was eager to go. I thought it would be  nice to re connect with old friends and reminisce of the times we had. The expectations kept me up at night, until I let go of the expectations then…..  Divine Guidance took over.

I pondered on how very much I struggled with school mentally, especially. My mission at that time was to “fit” in. Having a very strict upbringing and being led by a “cult” religion, along with severe depression back then….my teen days were less than pretty. I had nothing in common with my “friends” at that time, why would I go? To experience the idiosyncratic vibe? The layers I have shed have truly revealed my core essence. Which is wonderful, yet deep down I have no heartfelt desire to connect with old acquaintances who in my mind were not based on my inner truth. I devoted all of my energy into creating someone I thought I should be to be accepted, which did work temporarily.

Then on the other hand, I also know through spiritual study that every human interaction is meant to be. So why not go to reveal my new found awakened self? Or in the least radiate all of the good that has come out of my transformation.  I’ve chosen to stay outwardly silent, a very contradictory trait from my old self. It just feels right. I never was a fan of “clicks” though at the time did everything I could to be in the in crowd. TODAY I am happy with my unique individuality.

Emily’s  radiant confidence serves as one of my first lessons as a adult student.  Because of her existence the former things that used to feed me no longer act as a temptation.  When the old self inflicted behaviors I chose to carry  along my adulthood journey;  attempt to creep up on me like a sneaky slithering snake, I smile, nod, and wink at them for without their existence I would not be here in the “NOW”.

Shifting into the unknown has always been difficult for my physical self to adhere to.  Conditioning myself to artificially sooth away any abnormalities my body was experiencing, was at the time my greatest ally.

Though,, these days the multidimensional frequency seems to have streamed through leaving me no option but to adhere as I watch the  “no longer parts that serve me” slowly loose it’s prior fed power.  Every child incarnated assists with this shift. The categories we place them in for our understanding can sometimes get us off track. This particular day I was feeling overwhelmed with uncertainties. I ‘m finding when I am not in my own power random acts take place, which forces me to connect the dots. Oh these dots….

Emily and I  had some errands to do which included two ritual weekly  visits. One was Weight Watchers, the other was Whole Foods. As we entered the WW building and waited on the line, the power went out. I looked over at EMILY for a reaction and this is what I received:  I was the recipient of the most clever looking smile imaginable. I thought to myself hmmm…. the next stop was Whole Foods, and guess what? Yes you guessed it the power went out in the store as well. One of the employees was shocked and made a comment that that never happened before and how odd it was because of the back up generator they had. On the car ride home I connected with Emily with the hopes I could get some clarity on what had transpired…. and this what came forward.

Some babies come in with surface  abnormalities which are meant for us to look behind them verses directly at them. This alone awakens perceptions. Some babies come in with deep rooted issues that may strengthen our growth into the spirit realm. Some babies choose subtle occurrences to knock us off balance which most times proves to be appropriately  guided. Then some incarnate with gifts that are  hidden beneath the naked eye as therapeutic channels are opened and the suffering you have carried on your human journey can be healed. Our messages are repeatedly given, some subtle, some with force, it solely depends on the individual. The frequencies we carry are difficult to master along with public electricity. When our  guardians are not grounded coupled with the former,  we experience sparks of electricity within our physical body which is why power failures occur in our presence.

I decided to silently meditate before we go out in public in this way, my soul will be nourished.  I cannot help but feel guilty. Guilty because of my not being centered. This  causes her to experience this. I am still learning this student teacher deal, I have a feeling I am getting better:)